Below are the 6 most recent journal entries recorded in thisocean's LiveJournal:

Monday, October 3rd, 2005
9:19 pm	subwaytakemewawy so today's hardly the right day to be saying what im getting ready to say, since it was such a kickass day and all and the weather was perfect. but i miss my friends. its driving me near-to-the-wall insane cuz im totally not used to not seeing everyone every second of every weekend of every week. i think ive had about three conversations a month with any/all of my friends since i dont know, june. it's weird. what happened to my social aspect lol. happiness has its costs huh? . and my birthday's next thursday too. i'm somehow not as excited as i always used to be. i dont know, i think i just need to jump on the train again and get things going again. i'm happy though, like really seriously, ineedtostopsmiling happy. i just have to adjust to some things. and stuff. still getting used to this whole attachment deal eh. schools going good though. 4.0 babyy. i miss you guys <3 (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 24th, 2005
9:38 pm	chachawallawallabingbang ;) i was having the worst day ever yesterday, and it didnt really help that it was only the second day of school. i went for a fatty walk last night and tried to walk all the suckiness away, but since i wasnt running, it didnt really do much to cheer me up. calling brian helped a bit, but i get so freaking distracted way too easily, so my phone conversations with people never really go too well unless i'm lying in bed getting ready to unwind. okay i lost my point. oh. so yea last night before gonig to sleep i was talking to georgie about how sucky the day was, which was like a 3 minute convo then he made me laugh for the hour after that. and this morning on my way to school he left me a voicemail saying hopefully today would be that much more awesome. which of course started everything nicely, and i couldnt stop laughing for pretty much the whole day afterwards. it felt good. and he was super optimistic with me about my whole tennis deal too. after getting cut from volleyball. which yanno...sucks. but hey, maybe i should give it a try. cant hurt, can it? ohhh yea. luis has drama with me,and SUNSHINE! and gabbbymayyyy, and shaynes trying to transfer in. i was fuckin dying when mr eick wanted luis to imitate him wiggling his ass around. oohh mannnn. fasho. i laugh too much in that class. it's a good thing i can make my self hella happy over the littlest things, otherwise my life wouldnt be this goddamn interesting. summer was the most kickass thing it could possibly be, and brian makes me wayyy too happy, its becoming contagious. oh. i was messing around afterschool today and slapped him by accident, which made me feel pretty fuckin bad afterwards, cuz honestly, i never do that kind of thing intentionally. i was just waiting for him to let me know how pissed off he was, and then he didnt, and it tripped me out, and sitting there doing absolutely nothing but hug him afterwards felt amazing. i cant believe i just wrote an entire paragraph about my relationship with someone. im tellllling you mannnn, im getting gayyer by the second. not literally. ahhh wellll. i gave up being surprised a while ago. and i'm feelin pretty fuckin goood :) i owe rachelle a coffee date. laskjdlasncaosnco i have kickass friends. life is blissss <3 :) paycheck friday! fuck yesss. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, August 6th, 2005
6:08 pm	all the prettyyy colors ;) VEGAS, babyyy =D too bad i'm not 21. and i left my usb cable at home. pictures woulda been nice =T i havent written here in ages. recap of the week...well it was awesome. oh. and i cant wait until Sonic is built in Sacramento. too bad i dont know all too many racers. car club night was awesome. im wayy too lazy to update. <3 (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, May 1st, 2005
2:24 pm	rainbow stripes and tenchicolor brightssss yesterday coach stuck me in the snack bar allllllllll day and i had like, one burger. wtf?!?!?! it was funnnn though. but i only saw gabby like twice. and then when i took my break after lets seeeeee....9 hours of feeding ppl, she had to go back and work tables. i didnt even see chandra at all =T why am i whining? it was funn. then we got in opies truck and played ska music really loud while i let my hair fly out the window. and decided to go to great wraps to visit mandi, who wasnt even working. and Juice It Up was closed. so no virley either =T then brian's stepdad answered the phone when brian called him, even though we wished realllllly hard for his mom to answer it, so it meant i couldnt come over. so they just drove me home afterwards. this post sounds really bitchy huh. but really it was funn =) and ugh i hate myspace. no just kidding. i hate myspace whores. get over yourself. it does not equal a confidence booster. you have like two real friends in real life. hey but there are some pretty awesome ppl you can meet through there though. IF YOU ACTUALLY PLAN ON TALKING TO THEM IN REAL LIFE. i'm being really mean. i've never posted something so ... haha. so yea. i'll delete this later. mmk. <3 oh yea and frank's hair makes ihm look like one of those british pop stars from the 80's. that makes me hella smile yyyooo. =D okay really im done. goddamn what is up with me today savnoisacnaoiscnoaac =) (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 27th, 2005
11:15 pm	such great heights i'm feeling so shitty this week. i haven't laughed since it seems like forever ago. my allergies turned into a pretty bad cold >_< its making me think tooo much too. i feel like me a year or so ago. not coool. rachelle<3 made my dayy though, i found a note from her in my lab book today which made me feel better =) and i visited virley at work, Juice It Up actually is prettyy good haha. i'm gonna take NyQuil and crash. nite (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, April 25th, 2005
10:09 pm	tapered edges. so i decided to start all over, my other account was givng me a headache and i wasn't really using it anyway. on friday i went to see rachelle's play, and she was so unbelievably awesome, i loved it =) afterwards brad dropped me and brian off at casey's house; blaise was throwing a little kickback since their parents were gonna be gone for 10 days. i called mikeyyy and he brought some ppl over, which was probably a good idea cuz then no one got bored. i drank rum, which i really shouldn't have, since i told elyse i wasnt planning on drinking that night to begin with. i wanted to make sure she'd be okay, which she wasnt. she threw up the whole night but i couldnt help her much cuz i had a fatty headache. after 5 shots and half an hour, my head was feeling pretty much like a train track would probably feel if it were alive, every time a train passes over it. i completely missed the "drunk" part and went straight to the hangover.and having Dre teach me how to throw up was sad. i'd never had to before- i think i'm gonna keep it that way. there were some good parts, but the stars weren't out that night haha. brian and i mostly sat on the steps outside and talked since being inside was making me feel all suffocated and dizzy. that ended the night on a good note. he stayed sober, and i would very much rather have been also. he was nice about it though. jessi and i got home around 2 and crashed. i forgot to say goodnight to mom =T i'm failing trig. and i have no idea why. i understand everything she teaches us, and never have a problem doing any of the homework. but i can never retain anything. i need help. but i don't know what i need help with? or who to ask. i need rainbows. sunshine's blog surprised me. it made me <3 her more, theres a good side to everything. [you won't understand what i'm saying here.] i'm not usually this melodramatic. it's one of those days. i'm sick and have a headache. i should probably start ellis's work. i wish i wasn't so against attachments. maybe then i'd let myself fall. and not feel so empty. its not as easy as it sounds. goodnight<3 (Comment on this)